Sunday, August 27, 2006
" ; 12:04 PM "
I've just realized what i mean to some people. I'll tell you.
1; I'm a scab in the knee,when the time comes,you can flick me right off.
2; I'm dirt you can just wash away.
3; I'm trash in a dustbin,dump me off when you need to.
4; I'm a pest,an insect which you can kill me off with insectiside
5; I'm an object which you think has no feelings.And lets you treat me anyway you please.
6; I'm just second fiddle.
7; I'm a subsitute.You use me when you need it.But when something better comes along,you just thrust me aside.
8; I'm a rag.Used me once and then throw me away.
And that's what i feel I am to some ppl.At least that's what they TREAT me like.I'm redundant and useless.And what have I done to them? abosoulutely nothing.i just feel like telling them: "Sorry I spoilt your day." or "I'll stay out of your lives,since you don't like me" or even "Sorry for making your life so miserable,I'll just melt away"
pbbth. Because waiting for them to accept me ever again is like waiting for rain in a drought,waiting for pigs to fly.I can't bring myself to hate them back.But i know that there's some part of them inside which still likes me for who I am.But now,I have half my friends gone.because of ONE person. So, my life is thrown away.gone.
And I may have a million dollars[seriously i dun have] a nice car[i dun have my licence,just a figure of speech] kay,I'll start over
THIS IS JUST A FIGURE OF SPEECH
I may be rich,have a super cool car,a big house,be in a big business and have good athelethic + acedemic skills.I still wouldn't be satisfied.Because,in a world without friends, everything I own is worth nothing.
That's how I feel. Rich and at the same time;SO so so so so so so so so so so poor and alone. Get the picture? Anyway,if this is too emotional or SAAAD for you,then go away.
Time for me to melt away
bye.
