Okay, for once I'll be using Sophisticaited for venting my anger, although i've been trying to be a happier person. But today was okiayish, but math totally ruined my mood.

So go read alienation if you don't want to have your mood obsessively ruined.

Got the results back, except for math, I guess I got what my studying deserved. And yes, i'm totally disappointed with math. And no, i'm not one of those people who excessively flaunt their awesome marks.

yeah.
"Aawww, i'm so sad. I did so badly"
"Why... how'd you do?"
"Haiya... I got 91/92/93/94/95/96 (Gigantic numbers that make your eyes go POP)..."

I could just faint and DIE. Yeah, i know some of you are kinda reading this, but yes, don't get pissed, just don't DO it anymore.

Gosh, talk about kicking someone when they're down, sure i know you did your bit of studying and got what you wanted, yippee hooray, but spare a thought for the people who didn't. You know?

You're just there going on and on about how estatic you are, that you don't even pay attention to the people around you who look all gloomy and are in need of comfort. Just, be gracious okay? I mean... Go happy hooha and all, just don't OVERDO it. We respect and congratulate you on your effort, but pleaze, don't rub it in.

Personally, i was like that before. But then when I got hit right back in the face, I didn't like it. Not really. I feel for the people who didn't do as well, so yeah, if you want them to go kick your crying ass when you got hit in the face, then yeah carry on.

Open your eyes, to see it's BOASTING. mmhmm, yes, and whoops, okay, you people are really going to hate me and whatever, but, i'm kinda over that. So if you want to carry on flaunting your oh so awesome talent. Well, okay that's who I am aite? Honest. Honestly speaking, i don't have anything against anyone PERSONALLY. I'm just saying those people of that kind.

WHOOOPEEEE. And I don't like it when people go all "You so smart whaaat."

Grah, is that like some sort of EXPECTATION I'm supposed to live up to?

I'm not just saying this because I didn't do well okay? It's just not primary school anymore, quit being so immature. Gosh.

Two examples today, about how INCREDIBLY insensitive some of them are... Again, nothing personal.

"What did cha get for Math?"
Me : "Umm... ---"
"That's kinda lowwww..."
Me : "Yeah, uhh, thanks, I kinda realised that, but thanks for reminding me."
-
Somebody's crying, I shan't say who.

"I did so badly... I got ---" (Amidst the tears)
Me : It's alright ---, I mean you tried your best right, nobody will blame you for it. You did your best, you can't do anything to change it alright? there will always be a next time k, calm down.
"Okay... I'm okay now."
Girl #3 (Also crying) : "---! NEVERMIND. I did very badly tooooooo! It's okayyy, i only got 80! I didn't top my SA1 score :((((( "
--- bursts out

Way to go.

Come guys, now. Proper MANNERS. Somebody's CRYING. You do not go OMG HIGH, I'M BETTER THAN YOU. smack in your face. Blurgh, I just feel so weird, i mean i feel bad for you, but I don't know if people WANT the pity? So, I'm stuck for words, sometimes, okay? I don't have all the right things to say, but that doesn't make me any less a friend.

I just don't know how to EXPRESS myself to you. I mean, personally. in your face. just all choked up alright...

You don't do that, ever. Right (?) Grnhzx. You're not better than her, she's no better than you. Why can't you just respect other people?

And yeah, once again, my awesome class has let us down.

PEOPLE, CAN'T WE EVEN HAVE A PRODUCTIVE DISCUSSION?
Gawd, I had FAITH in you guys,
please you can't even co-operate a little? Drive us nuts.
Here goes the WHOLE cycle again.

We want to take some initiative, pass on the news for something we need to do. We ask you guys what you want, if not you'll be unhappy. But you don't want to say ANYTHING, so we're just staring at each other STONING.

So please, what? IT'S GETTING HOPELESS. I thought we could be like some Coach Carter miracle. But the difference would be that, we're just not underdogs, only unparticipative, un enthusiastic, selfish, and insensitive.

Guess what. I was wrong, you people are still like that. And i can't do it anymore, i just don't want to be EXPECTED to do all your crap, and have you complain all day about how I DIDN'T do things the way it was EXPECTED to.

It's a scale of one person to the entire class, i mean, the class comm is OUTNUMBERED, very much as you can see, we can't SHOULDER all your blame.

Seriously. You guys BUCK UP. understand? For a bunch of Einsteinettes, you're pretty immature. But if you want to be stereotyped as the NERD GEEK PEOPLE WHO ONLY KNOW HOW TO STICK YOUR HEAD IN THE FREAKING BOOKS, AND DO NOT CARE ABOUT THE REST OF THE WORLD AS IF YOU ARE THE ONLY LIVING AND BREATHING GODDESS IN CONTROL OF THE UNIVERSE, then guess what?

I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO BOTHER ABOUT YOU GUYS ANYMORE. I might as well be one of you. I don't see why you guys can't contribute as much as the comm does. I see no initiative, no respect, utter selfishness, disunity and limitless COMPLAINING.

Pssh. Welcome people, to um. Reality. YOU HAVE TO STICK UP FOR EACH OTHER. Either that, or you'll end up pushing each other off a cliff.

Seriously, what would it take to CHANGE your mindset? You want me to scream? you know as hell i can do that. But NOOOO, you'll stereotype me the class bitch, then what?
Nobody will do anything, we'll just all SIT on our lazy asses, and just DEPEND ON THE FORCES OF GOODLUCK(Bullshit okay), that something's going to get us by.

You want to avoid disappointment, but you don't want to make any effort. Is that it?
Okay, so I'm sure as hell you don't want me to scream. Hmm, what if i beg? Or you want me to tattle tale to a teacher? Hmmm. nyah, won't work either.

WHAT WILL SATISFY YOU HUH? More talk, more action.

Does EVERYTHING I say NOT motivate you people? None at all? Doesn't it piss you off a tiny bit that I'm saying these things, and gives you a tiny urge to prove me wrong?
Doesn't it?

We can only do so much. We referring to the class comm. The rest of the class, you either make us or break us.

And hell, regarding the other class discussions. I ask you. You want me to draw lots? Silence.
How do you want us to solve this problem?
Silence.


Seriously, if you don't speak up, NOBODY WILL HEAR YOU. and then you'll be discontent, and start COMPLAINING again. This is "constructive feedback" alright? So if you're taking it as an insult, than I couldn't be more sorry. This was meant to be motivation. So anyway, I go about asking how to solve a problem in picking teams blahblahblah, in the most FAIR way right?

Fine. I do it, and apparently, the piece of paper JUST DOESN'T HAVE YOUR NAME ON IT. I drew LOTS. You can't expect me to change it. Face it ok, you volunteered for a job that only had TWO positions, and like 8 people volunteer, I can't expect to make the post have 5 BILLION positions...

Not fair. Complain lah, complain some more. I mean, i could have said, nahh, i don't want to do mass dance. But I didn't did I? You think it's EASY trying to choreograph a dance that EVERYONE can be satisfied with, and nobody will be embarrassed about?

C'mon you try. Oh wait, I've kinda tried ASKING before, what did we get?
"Haiyerrrrrrrrrrrrr."

So if you're unsatisfied, i suggest you FORGET IT. BECAUSE. it's just endless complaining that will not get us anywhere, and will not do anyone any good. So just try and make the most of things, LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE.

Don't just think of saving your own butt. Face endless embarrasment in front of your friends, blahblahblah, talk about materialistic, i've heard it all before. Let it go, it will pass. You can't always expect someone to do ALL your bidding. Okay? And Sure yes, I DO WELL IN TERMS OF ACADEMICS.

Yes little miss technical, but do you have a heart?

It will never end, if you don't do anything.
So do something.
We're all more than capable.
Just zip the trap, and open your heart.

Of Course Dear Lord, you made us all this way, you're testing us and putting us through trials, to strengthen us, no matter how misleading life can get.

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