Monday, January 12, 2009
" If you are what you say you are ; 9:02 PM "
Yep. So I have resolved to reflect today. Well, my mum was very cranky just now. I'm working on my temper. Yes I'm so sorry to all the people whom I've not replied smses to. I'm tons busy. Hectic schedule, its CRAZY. K. cool off.
Gosh, I had a very scary dream last night. I dreamt that one of my church friends turned his back on God, I won't tell you who. It was so scary la... I was wondering if it was just my imagination or what.
Well, anyway. I posted about my day on www.alien-ation.blogspot.com
The reflective part now.
I wonder if they know.
I wonder if they know the good news.
I wonder how many of them care.
I wonder how many can stay alive without wondering
how they got there in the first place.
I wonder if they know.
I wonder if they wonder if there's a higher love up there.
I wonder if they care.
I wonder how they can live life so normally if they didn't have a purpose.
I wonder what their hopes and ambitions are.
I wonder if they'll achieve.
I wonder if they know what brought them to the state they're in.
I wonder.
I wonder if they know what has been laid down for them.
I wonder if they realised at what cost they've been paid for.
I wonder if they know what sacrifice is.
I wonder if they want to know more.
I wonder if they wonder who can answer their questions.
I wonder if I could be the change.
I wonder if they'll listen.
I wonder if they'll share.
I wonder if they'll open up and be saved.
I wonder if they'll go forth.
I wonder if I'll be change to inculcate that change.
yes. my reflections while i was on the bus during peak hour. Its quite a good time actually.
When you're on the bus, listening to some Christian songs, and you're so tired that you've only got energy left to think.
And when i look about the crowded bus, I study everyone's face. The anger, the weariness, the boredom, the fear, the hopelessness, the smugness, the proud, the closed, the concealed.
Then I stop and think, that used to be me.
Then I wonder.
If they know God.
And.
if they have faith.
I read their expressions, and I'm drawn to the eyes, the windows of their souls.
Empty.
Empty.
The bus turns, and I face the sun, the setting sun. The shining sun. The same sun that's been there for eternity. Then I think of its faithfulness, its purpose and its creator. I think of the source of that light. And it just keeps surprising me, it keeps on coming on.
God is Love
God is Love
God is Love
And I know He has something new to show me. I know He wants to show you.
I know He is above all.
but Dancers. Wow. You want to make friends, you talk superficially, you want to make conversation, you gossip, so what do i do? I keep silent and say a silent prayer.
Well yes. My busy hectic day.
Rearranging the classroom, doing seating arrangements,
some democracy.
The majority rules out, everyone still ends up sitting in cliques,
try to unclique the class? They hate the committee.
try to get involved? We're interfering KPOs.
leave them up to their own decisions? The class comm is inactive and ineffecient.
We were warned. So I shall just gladly take everybody's complaints in silence.
I'll wait for this to all fade away.
yes, CGK concluded, during the SPONGEE experiment, that this class is sometimes too smart for their own good. 37 different opinions, mindsets, and ideas. Yes, let the creative juices flow. But when it comes down to this sort of thing, its like shouting bloody murder. Its a selfish bloodbath, and we step on each others' throats.
Hmm. I will be disappointed when 2/1 splits, and nobody misses it. ):
What happened to the spirits after retreat hmm? We only get retreats at the end of the year
By that time it'll just be too late. (Last year's 2/1 was so bonded, the entire class was Catholic)
What happened to us? What happened to this?
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIN YEE, Darln.
yes, 14, the next milestone. The second year of teenager hood. Wow, 5 years, baby five. I'm so glad I've been able to be in your life, I've learnt so much from you, and we've grown together, from 9 year old children, to 14 year young'ins. Yes, to all that is to come, cheers.
Hey look at the cool Cross behind (:
Ever more, my heart, my heart will sing, above all, I live for your glory.
The reflective song of today during my morning Christian song,car-journey-to-school ipod adventure is EVERMORE.
Omg, David blogs for homework.
www.walkintime.blogspot.com
I'm still Science file + History File-less.
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Tag replies, then shall we?
10 Jan 09, 22:22 Erin: Psh Gowri, don't be so negative. It WAS fun. I think Caitlin would've liked it. =)(Yes I think I would have) |
10 Jan 09, 13:16 Gowri: hi caitlin the racist... If were at the home economics lesson u would have said other wise =.=(I'm not racist!) |
9 Jan 09, 15:34 Erin: Aha, I see you've realised the joy of wiki-ing anything you see and think of!!! Congrats, my racist friend!(Still not racist. I was looking for my timetable laar!) |
8 Jan 09, 22:13 gwen: HELLOOOOO CAITLIN!(Sup lovebug) |
8 Jan 09, 20:33 cjwei: lol u wan extra hols every yr?come acsi...in yr 5(JW you think I vehhh smart aah!) |
7 Jan 09, 23:49 dwight: YOU HAD TO TELL THE WHOLE WORLDDDD. AHHHHHH.(I just couldn't resist!) |
7 Jan 09, 23:39 gwen: rar rar!! i DID NOT cheat on jeremy...he's still my jiminy mouse!(Jiminy mouse my foot! If I told him the that I think he'll start puking) |
7 Jan 09, 19:18 Erin: Yes yes, I very rike yerrow, Foo Caitlin. Thanks you at my brog tag!(Noe probremm at arrll. Your brog my brog, we good flen) |
7 Jan 09, 17:40 cjwei: lol wad happened 2 the skin format?its all messed up(Just some HTML error): |
6 Jan 09, 23:22 Moto Moto: I wanna watch australia! Omgeez, HUGH JACKMANNN. Ahh, melt.(Three hour long show about Cattle, you sure?) |
(Please avoid sensitive subjects, please, thank you. I'm content with ours!)
