Sunday, November 01, 2009
" Long and overdue. ; 3:28 PM "
Who's feeling blah?
Well I'm having a serious case of PMS, but i think Prng's sermon today helped quite alot. Maybe its just because I'm being negative and speaking death words upon myself, which I've resolved to stop doing.
I've been planning to do this long overdue post about all the stuff that's going through my brain right now, i'm so muddled up though, i've been doing so much thinking, and its crazy because I've barely had time to breathe, and yet i can still think such things.
Things about the future, things about relationships, and other stuff that might just be too much for a fourteen year old to be thinking. I don't know, I've been having bad cases of insomnia, and I found out you think best just before you sleep, so my brain's been working overtime.
I've also had tons of things on my to do list that have been collecting dust from my neglection. First off, I had some time to spend with my folks, and I just realised how very depressing my grandma's life seems to be. She's like what, the second eldest, okay now the oldest, since her older brother, whom I've never met before, died quite recently, and life just has been a whirldwind for her.
I mean, she has 5 kids right, with an arranged marriage, and my grandpa, with a tragic life of his own, and i don't know how my grandma managed to chuck all of them into college, 3 in medical school for that matter.
And how she still found the time to cook and clean and teach music I wonder. She's such a toughie, my grandma's truly a remarkable woman, and though she has a small and fragile frame, she's really weathered and wise. And cute as a button. I haven't appreciated her enough since she's been taking care of me for ages.
And everyon takes her for granted. Geez. She's such an inspiration. But she's yet to see the light. She thinks the whole idea's absurd, and its not like she doesn't know. She's a convent girl. Of course she does. She just thinks that its strange that you could love someone more than your parents, family and life itself.
Poor granny.
And I've been down the whole week, though I must say my brother's prawning parteh was quite a pick me up. Despite the thunderstorm. Limejews anyone? NONONO. Limechinese.
My voice is not doing any better, I swear some of my classmates (coughahemanabelcough) are in love with me. I do like the way my voice sounds, its COOL, lower than most people I know, raspy like David Cook. But i can't sing. Aaw.
I'm tired. I've got this crazy week before me and i don't know what to do.

And how she still found the time to cook and clean and teach music I wonder. She's such a toughie, my grandma's truly a remarkable woman, and though she has a small and fragile frame, she's really weathered and wise. And cute as a button. I haven't appreciated her enough since she's been taking care of me for ages.
And everyon takes her for granted. Geez. She's such an inspiration. But she's yet to see the light. She thinks the whole idea's absurd, and its not like she doesn't know. She's a convent girl. Of course she does. She just thinks that its strange that you could love someone more than your parents, family and life itself.
Poor granny.
And I've been down the whole week, though I must say my brother's prawning parteh was quite a pick me up. Despite the thunderstorm. Limejews anyone? NONONO. Limechinese.
My voice is not doing any better, I swear some of my classmates (coughahemanabelcough) are in love with me. I do like the way my voice sounds, its COOL, lower than most people I know, raspy like David Cook. But i can't sing. Aaw.
I'm tired. I've got this crazy week before me and i don't know what to do.